NUMBING

My mind takes over my existence at times

I daydream of scenarios

Doubts flood my veins

I feel paralyzed

I breathe to get a grip

But it tightens it’s grip on my chest

I want to drink to numb it’s constant questioning

Of actions of others and scenarios replayed

Everyone sees only a drinker

A vagabond

And not the monster I’m day by day trying to slay

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WHERE IS THE COMPASSION?

“I haven’t really been paying attention”

“I don’t watch the news” 

“Law and order is important”

I do not dabble in politics

I am involved in justice and elevating humanity

How can people watch the tears of a child

Ripped away from his family

And justify it with their ignorance

Or their loyalty to a party

When did humanity fall so far from paradise

That we allowed devils in disguise

To instigate and divide

Over imaginary borders and lines

WHY ARE WE ACCEPTING THESE LIES
WHAT WILL IT TAKE TO BREAK THROUGH THE GUISE
IF YOU ARE NOT OUTRAGED
THEN THERE IS NO HOPE FOR YOU
YOU’RE ALREADY DEAD INSIDE 

SPEAK YOUR TRUTH

I used to keep things to myself

What bothered me

What I felt was offensive

But once I cleared my throat chakra

The words flow out like a symphony conducted by my highest self

Wether it sounds selfish or burdened

Is irrelevant

I must speak my truth

And those that wish me to remain silent

Only wish they could express themselves

Without the hesitation

Without their intellect’s deception

My words are my spells

They are my Tantric truths

And they don’t care about breaking

Other’s lackluster rules

THICK SKINNED

My biggest mistake was relying on them

I used to have an armor as thick as bear skin

Now I feel myself crumbling

I know you have to shed and feel

That hiding from emotions is a sure way to never deal

Trapping energy and creating blocks

But I’m at the point where

What I feel is too much to bear

I give it my best

But to everyone else it’s never quite there

How great it would be to drive to a place where I’m a stranger

Where expectations don’t persist

Where I can not let anyone down

Being soulful isn’t a way to become invincible

Its to feel everything and transform yourself

As much as I want to run

I stand tall

Even when it hurts like hell

MAYDAY

My shoulders hold weight

And those around me that love me jab at my sides to see if I’ll break

They cannot relate

They know no better

But out of their ignorance I suffer

I just want someone who can see what I carry

And decides not to add to the pressure

Someone who will take what I live through into consideration

Instead of just judging my actions

With no context whatsoever

What will it take from me

To be surrounded by those who can see

The sacrifices I do on a daily

Just to maintain my peace and tranquility

I could cave and be the devil I learned to be

But this is bigger than me

This life is to cleanse my ancestral tree

To break out of a chain

That has kept my family enslaved

I guess what I ask for

Is my guides to give me strength

To give me love in myself

And to purify those in my life now

With new intent